My Saddest Moment isn't Here Yet (But, it's coming)
- Brandon Miracle
- Oct 21, 2015
- 2 min read
In 2013, things got pretty rough for me at Greenville College. I was having issues with my now girlfriend, money was tight, and I was becoming really depressed. I toughed it out, but I just couldn't escape those feelings. I couldn't sleep at night, I started ditching my responsibilities, and my friends were becoming really worried about my well-being.
Well, inevitably, all of these factors lead to my leaving of Greenville College. I came home to Rockford, but you already know that story. My saddest moment isn't any of these things. My saddest moment is a result of them, and it has yet to come.
In 2016, my very best friends will be graduating with their Bachelor degrees. They will be standing tall, completing their planting of the ivy ceremonies (Greenville College tradition). As for me? I'll be sitting in the audience... watching. Probably crying.
Those guys and girls up there are some of the very best friends I've ever had in my life. It's going to be so painful knowing that they have achieved what I dreamed of so much. I desperately want to be up there with them. Even now, writing this, I'm a little shaken.
Of course, I'm going to be unbelievably proud of them. Some of those guys were bigger delinquents than even me. (Totally talking about responsibility here. Come on, it's a Christian College.)
I was in tears the day I left that school. All of that pain lead me to try again at Rock Valley College. Things went off to a rocky start because I didn't quite believe in myself. That lead to a lot of missing class and blowing off assignments. But, one day, a professor stopped me from leaving class out of frustration and yelled at me to get my "ass in gear."
It must have struck a chord because since that day, I've been giving it everything I've got. I've poured my heart and soul into my work. I've become proud of what I've accomplished.
So, with that, one day I'll be getting my Bachelors degree and those friends that stood by me through all the pain will get to watch. I'll probably still be crying.
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